Y'all, I'm spent.
I'm running on fumes now, and I'm having a hard time finding the time and energy and even the want-to to refill the tank. When it gets like this, it is easier to just retreat and hide. In my bed. On the couch. Anywhere it is dark and quiet. Away from phones ringing. And children talking.
Today I've hid.
And I'm fighting the urge to not hide tomorrow. And the next day. And the day after that.
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I'm so glad that even in the rough days of weepiness and exhaustion, there are some giggle-worthy moments. Like this pajama clad Super Spy who has taken over my home....
1.17.2011
Empty
1.15.2011
Hoarder Schmoarder PEZuhroarder
My dad is a hoarder collector. A self-proclaimed one, I might add.
Kirk's parents are hoarders collectors. Self-proclaimed, as well.
So it's really no wonder that we all come by it honestly.
My sister is a hoarder collector, though she argues it's "not the same" as Jim-Dad's. I'm a hoarder collector. I don't really mind getting rid of stuff, but I despise the process it requires. Organizing closets and going through this and that equals Texas-size headache to me, so I'd just rather not do it...thus hoards of stuff collections occur. Kirk's a hoarder collector. His reasoning is that you never know when you might need something or other. And then there are the children. All hoarders collectors.
But, perhaps the biggest hoarder collector we have in the family is Keaton. The kid has a collection of collections. He keeps papers and paperclips and bottle caps and the teensy syrup bottles from Cracker Barrel that come with his pancakes. He has shells and rocks and leaves and pen caps and spiral notebooks and empty bullet casings and parts and pieces of anything and everything that he deems interesting enough to keep.
As a result, when Keaton decides he's going to start a new collection, my reaction is usually, "Uh-huh, that's cool..." because the kid usually doesn't stick with something long before he's off to the next most interesting thing in the world.
So it was when he decided he was going to start a Pez Dispenser collection.
I smiled and nodded and said, "Uh-huh, that's cool..." and went on about my business. I had no idea what would transpire over the next year.
It all started last February-ish. The Pez Dispenser collection. It started with a couple of Pez Dispensers he picked up at WalMart just because he thought they looked cool, and he had a couple of dollars burning a hole in his pocket.
Then he decided to gOOgle Pez Dispensers.
Which led to his eBay addiction discovery.
Long story short, since last February, Keaton's collection has grown to 195 dispensers (I know, because we count them often *wink*). Some have been bought with piggy bank quarters, some have been worked for, some have been eBay finds, and a lot of them have been gifts.
And so far, he's still loving the collection. And as far as his dad and I are concerned, he's going to KEEP ON loving that collection. Because we know how much has been invested in those crazy plastic candy machines.
Today, Keaton decided to get out his big bin of dispensers and ORGANIZE them, one of his most favorite activities. And since I didn't have anything going, I decided to spend the day with him. I let him tell me all about his favorite ones. About the worth of this one and that one. I watched him dust all of them and carefully place them away in their special boxes and bins with an organizational strategy that only a ten year old could come up with. I even helped him make a spreadsheet that wasn't written in Childese, so that we could start keeping track of what he has and what he doesn't.
It was fun.
But my favorite part was seeing him so excited about these things that he cherishes so dearly.
| See the box of candy? Yep..he doesn't eat it. He |
All for the love of Pez....
1.13.2011
Watermelons
Getting on with it.....
| Holy Holding Marshmallow, Batman, that snowball is as big as his head! (As was the cry fest that ensued after he chunked it at his BIG brother's head.) |
| This was taken just before he unleashed that huge snowball that he's holding in hand...while I'm saying, "No! I have my camera!" And then he did it anyway. Hence the smirky grin. |
| Back Deck Snow Angels! (This is just as the snow was starting...we had no idea that fifty-eleven more inches would fall after that...) |
| I'll take Bundled Up Deliciousness for $1000, Alex. |
| Couldn't you just eat those freckles with a spoon? Get in line. I'm first. |
| The husband and the oldest rascal right before they tore up my yard during a mad fit of donut doin's. |
1.08.2011
'Tis Truly a Puzzle....
| This is Uncle Jim and I a couple of years ago at our Bangladesh Missionary Reunion. He still looks exactly the same as I remember him back in the day. |
| This is Aunt Bettye and my sister, Mich, at the same reunion. |
Labels: Growing Up Jungle, Project Photo
1.06.2011
Kindle Me Sweetly...
I don't know whom at Blogger is conspiring against me, but their cute is wearing off. This is the 2nd day that they are pulling the rug out from under my cleverly composed posts, and I'm beginning to not use my pretty words when referencing it. So I've resorted to posting from my phone. Take that, Blogger. You can't stop this girl.
Aside from attempting to work out a compromise with my blog host, I've done hardly anything today. I did get lesson plans accomplished for the next two weeks, which feels really good, but, other than that, I've done this:
| Project Photo #6 |
Yep.
I've been perched in my big ole' chair with my snuggly new Razorback Snuggie (no diamonds for me...the husband knew the way to my heart this Christmas was through a good deal of Hog-emblazoned fleeced yardage!) and have had my nose stuck in OUR new Kindle. (I say "our" because, technically, I bought it for the husband for Christmas. But who are we kidding here? I had definite ulterior motives in play...).
What? You noticed that the page showing says "Prologue"?
Yah, that's because I've already read one book today and that picture was taken when I was just starting another.
I'm telling you....it's been a good day.
- Posted using BlogPress from, Gertrude, my iPhone
Labels: Project Photo
1.04.2011
Hey, Amber.... How 'Bout Some Sugar?
Hey, Amber, what have you done today?
- Well, for starters, I swept my floor. But you can't tell, so don't come over until I sweep again. Then I tried to start a fire in my fireplace, but failed miserably at that. I have taken comfort in the fact, though, that the husband, too, has had trouble getting the fires to start lately, as evidenced by the BLOWTORCH sitting comfortably next to the fireplace. We know how to get things done around here.
- Actually, no. I worked profoundly hard at cleaning up the Christmas combustion that has taken over my house, but it doesn't look like I've done anything at all. I'm wondering if maybe I should have just taken the morning off and done absolutely nothing anyway, since that is what it looks like.
- This afternoon, the boys and I met a couple of besties at the park for a Bike and Scooter Fest. One of the problems with living in the country is an abundance of gravel and an inadequacy of concrete. And our one attempt at the scooter/gravel combo ended in depletion of my band-aide supply. While the boys sweat and pedaled away, Jen and I devoured a bag of Cool Ranch Doritos and gossipped....our own favored version of exercise.
- Why, yes, I did. Because I'm still hanging in there with my New Year's goal.
| Project Photo #4 |
- Oh, no, no coincidence at all, Dear Reader. Our blood runs swine red around these parts, and we have been paying homage to our Almighty Razorbacks all.day.long.
- Gasp. I'm going to try not and get all kinds of offended up in here, and try to remember that some of y'all aren't from these parts. Pull up a chair, honey, and let me enlighten you..... TODAY IS SUGAR BOWL DAY!!!
- We're VERY excited. Like VERY excited. Because the Sugar Bowl means good times with football, food, and friends! Three of my favorite things! In fact, we're leaving in a bit for a Woo Pig Sooie good time! The only thing better would be sitting my happy in New Orleans front and center, but since that ain't happening, I'm going to gorge myself on all things dippy and cheesy and melty and sugary.
- I also have found my brain is running through an endless loop of Def Leppard"s "Pour Some Sugar On Me" for the past two days, which you are now thanking me for because you know that you are singing it right now.... You're welcome.
- Aw. You're sweet. Thanks! And I'm so proud of you for stepping out with the Piggy Love.
Labels: Project Photo, Woo Pig Sooie
1.03.2011
If You Look Cute, They Will Come....
PROJECT PHOTO #3.....
1.02.2011
Rockin' the Resolutions
January 2nd and my resolution goal is already shot. The one about posting a picture every day.
Technically, I kept my goal of taking a picture today, but since I'm just getting home from the longest.day.evuh., I just grabbed the nearest computer I could find to get this post up, and it just so happened to be the husband's. And he doesn't take kindly to me uploading all my girly mess all up in his man space....
So for today...no picture posted. But I DID TAKE ONE!
So use your imagination:
The picture that I took was of the TaterTooter snoozing away in the van. I took the picture while driving around a hugacious curve with my body torqued around everywhichaway trying to capture his image with my iphone camera while he was sitting in the seat d.i.r.e.c.t.l.y. behind me...but he was just so darn cute sleeping, that I couldn't not take it. Insert parental safety speeches here. While you're at it, tell me not to text and drive, because, in the interest of full disclosure, I did that, too....
I was driving home today with the rascals who had docked with the mother ship for the past few days. The husband and I had left them with my parents for a few moments of much needed breathing room grandparent bonding.
A few days sans kids is always such a refreshing break, except for that whole gotta-pick-'em-up thing. Let me clarify...it's not that I didn't want to pick 'em up, because I really do like my children on some occasions. It's that I didn't want to do the mind-numbing drive to go and get 'em.
I would rather eat my shoe than drive.
So today was driving day. And now we are all finally home snug and exhausted and glad to be breathing our own air.
So here's to Home. And Family.
And already breaking New Year's Resolutions on DAY TWO.
Rock on.
Labels: Project Photo, That's How We Roll
1.01.2011
2011: Hit Me With Your Best Shot
New Years.
I've rang in 33 of these bad boys in my lifetime, and although I get the stink eye from folks when I talk about how old I feel, I think being able to say that I really don't know where time has gone constitutes me as being old enough to call myself old. (And before any of you nice people hurl whips and daggers in my direction, no, I'm not saying anything or implying anything about your own age and youth deprivation. Y'all are very young. It's me who's old.)
2010 was a wild ride of a year. I traveled places that I'd never been before. I almost died. I was scared out of my mind, and more excited than I've ever been. I gained 20 pounds, lost it, then gained it back again. I hired a personal trainer, went to boot camp, and then resorted to just sticking out my tongue at the gym as I slurped ice cream cones at the coldstone place across the street...all within 3 months. I watched lots of movies that haunted my thoughts for months on end, and watched lots that I will never remember again. I watched one of my sons come within a baseball bat's length of being part of a State Championship Little League team. And I spent more hours at football fields and baseball fields cheering on all three of my rascals than I did at home. We finished up our first year of homeschooling and started our second, and I'm still floundering in a sea of What-Have-I-Done about it. I witnessed Broadway magic with my bestie when we went and saw WICKED. And I was exposed to true friendship by three of the most amazing women I've ever met in my life (wink.wink.and.another.wink...you know who you are).
And I could go on and on.
But 2010 is over.
Calendars have been flipped to 2011, and clean slates are laid before us. But I don't know if I want a clean slate. 2010 was pretty great....and 2011 has huge shoes to fill.
But I suppose it's up the challenge.
I don't like resolutions for the New Year, because I have commitment issues, and I realize that I'm just setting myself up for failure...
BUT....
I do have a few goals.
- I want to draw closer to my Jesus, so that if 2011 happens to thrill my socks off, I know exactly who to praise for it. But even more than that, I want to draw closer to the One who made me, so that if 2011 holds tragedy and heartbreak or just days that stink like socks....I will recognize the One who will carry me through.
- I want to spend time building relationships that matter. That have faces. That will go the distance. I want to leave soured laundry in the washing machine and sit with a friend to drink coffee instead. I want to put down my cell phone's texting plan and call someone. I want to turn the tv off and listen to my children talk about nothing and everything all at the same time.
- I want to dive into the Word. Not to finish reading it, but to glean life's blood from it.
- I want to journal more. Because in my journaling, I find recollection and memories and therapy.
My goal is this:
- Take a picture every day. Maybe 2. Or 6. Or 348. But at least one. And cell phone cameras are totally legit. I know this because I made the rules.
- Then I'm going to post AT LEAST that picture everyday. Hopefully, my writing mojo will flood back to me in this year of newness, but if not, at least there will be something for me to attach my thoughts and reactions and memories to.
- Just one picture.
- I can totally rock that.
Well, then my January 1st post of 2012 will tell you about how 2011 was the year that I could not even keep one measly goal of snapping one measly picture a day.
We shall see.
We shall see.
Happy New Year, friends. May God rain down so much pureness in joy onto your 2011.
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It would only be fair to start this year off right. And wouldn't you know it, I'm going to start it off as a big ole' cheater. Because my picture for today wasn't even taken today. It was actually taken about 4 days ago, but I'm so impressed that we could get all 5 of us gene-sharers to look at the camera at the same time, that it would be simply criminal to not post it....
PROJECT PHOTO #1:
| December 29, 2010 |