11.18.2010

One Day....

I'm almost embarrassed to show my face around here...

Every day that drifts by without logging onto Blogger makes it that much harder to try to attempt the next day.  I have no idea why seasons come and go like they do, but I'm definitely in a season right now that has dropped blogging down a few notches on my whittling log of priorities. 

It is definitely not because I don't miss the people, relationships, and bonds that I've made through this medium.  In fact, that's what I miss the most.  I miss "seeing" my blogeeps every day.  Seeing their beautiful children, hearing their funny stories, and feeling like I am sitting on the couch having a good little chat with kindred spirits, coffee and giggles in hand.  I feel detached from that world right now.  Like I'm losing that neighborhood of friends.  And I don't like it.  Actually, those bonds are the only things that draw me back to my own site over and over....begging myself to check in and regain that luster. 

It's also definitely not because I've found another way to record my family's daily history.  I most certainly haven't done that.  I have many a megabyte of photos that are just hibernating until a time when I'll do something with them...most likely when it's so far in the future that I will have totally forgotten everything that was going on during the moment.  My boys are growing every day.  They're saying witty and hilarious things. They're just looking cute.  And I'm not recording any of it.  And I will regret that one day...or 5 seconds from now.

It's also not because I've decided that writing isn't my thing anymore.  It's still my thing.  And even writing this post about not writing has made me remember that I really do like writing.  Writing is therapy for me.  And it relieves a lot of tension.  Hmmmm......come to think of it, I'm not sure why the husband hasn't begged me to resume my regularly scheduled programming just for sanity's sake (his..not mine).

I honestly have no idea what it is.  Just a season, I suppose.  Because looking over this post, I can't really find one reason as to why I find it so hard to log on and do what I used to do as naturally as breathing....

One day, I'll get it back.

Because I'm not ready to say goodbye for good.

One day...
One fine bloggy day....

Until then...

12 comments:

Lindsay said...

Missed you but understand seasons...

theelizabethhighsmith said...

lawsy mercy chile, can we just turn the page and call this season through cause i wantcha back..what's for dinner let's start with that...i'm partial to the blue box and all

ps if we combine forces maybe we can resurect tiff-tiff

theelizabethhighsmith said...

and or we could just talk about how great my spelling is

*Resurrect

New Every Morning said...

When your "one day" comes around, I'll be waiting, friend.

Nancy said...
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Nancy said...

I understand.

Sometimes I just run out of things to say online too and instead so I just chat with myself for awhile to gather my thoughts.

You go rest ... we'll wait.

Jim said...

Amb,
I, for one, really miss you in bloggy land! It is one way I can keep up with the antics of the grandcals and their "parental teacher/coach" keepers! I know, I know - I've been slow to blog, too! But you got me into this thang, and I think I'm modeling your approach, because everythang you said, I am! So, let's make a pact - I'll do it if'in you will!
How's about it, Babe! We can start slow - say, a little bit every other day or so - you know - find that little bit of unusual in a day and take off on it - "new words" and all!
Love you!
Jim-Dad

Sami said...

Ok, that actually made me a little bit sad. I'm serious! I miss you here and your humor and stories. But it's ok to take a step away for awhile. Blogging shouldn't be a chore or something that you feel guilty about not doing. BUT I'm glad you remembered how much you liked to write! :) It's really not the same in blog world with out reading you!

Cathy said...

I TOTALLY hear ya, girlfriend. Totally.

Angie said...

Blogging is one of the only things in the world where it's ok to use the 'If it feels good, do it!' philosophy.
Do what ya gotta do, cuz! I'll be here when you get back!

Love ya dearly!!!

Marla Taviano said...

I'll be here, girl. :)

Ellen said...

You probably don't remember me....I used to live in your hometown and found your blog awhile back through some of our mutual friends that I have kept up with. Anyway, I love your blog and it had become a part of my daily dose. Your humor is really theraptic. sp? Just wanted you to know that you are missed in "bloggy world" by people that you didn't know even read your blog. I've been checking back periodically and I bet I will continue until you came back to visit. :)