9.28.2010

Seasons

Seasons are funny.

Some seasons come in gently.  Easing their way in.  Changing things gradually. 

Other seasons waltz in and slap you square in the jaw.  Leaving no mercy in their wake.

I prefer gradual.  Because I'm not a big change kinda gal.  I prefer to look around one day and say, "Whoa...something's different here, but I have no earthly idea what it is." That's much better than the alternative of waking up one day and your entire world has flipped itself.  Yes...Gradual is much better.  And easier on the nerves.

Fall has finally shown its face here in South Arkansas, and I'm loving the open-window, fleecy pajama kinda weather.  I even slept with 3 quilts on my bed last night and didn't sweat one time....it was magical.

But this post isn't really about the newfound crispness in the air.

A new season has sneaked in and rearranged all the furniture in my mind.  Facets of my life have been uprooted and tossed around like nothing I've ever seen before, and other pieces have remained untouched in this bizarre twist of seasonal irony.  Some parts are better.  Some are devastated.  Some are still whirling around.  And I'm stuck somewhere in the middle trying to make sense of it all.

Priorities are shifting.  Conversations are being had that I never thought would have to be.  Time spent on things that used to be so important are now fleeting thoughts.  Interests have moved.  Definitions of words like "quality" and "contentment" are rewriting themselves. 

And I'm still reeling with the shift in equilibrium.

But I suppose that's what seasons are all about.  Some seasons are for deadening, so that new growth can spring forth.  Some seasons are for blooming and flowering and conquering the bleakness.  Some seasons are for transition.  And others are for preparation.

But whatever the season......

"We take the good days from God—why not also the bad days?"  -- Job 2:10 (the Message)

I just prefer more good days than bad....

9 comments:

Nina Diane said...

hope everything is ok...have missed hearing from ya!

Gretchen said...

"A new season has sneaked in and rearranged all the furniture in my mind. Facets of my life have been uprooted and tossed around like nothing I've ever seen before, and other pieces have remained untouched in this bizarre twist of seasonal irony."
WOW. What an incredible writer you are. Seriously.

I've been praying for you dear friend. Keep me posted.

PS. I was reading this post with the fear that you might end it with "and the season of blogship has ended." Whew! So glad you didn't write that!!!

Mich said...

Ecclesiates 3 (I'm tp lazy to type it all out, but you know what it says...just a reminder.)

Totally love you no matter the season. You and yours (which is also mine) are ALWAYS in my prayers.

Mich said...

Oops! spelled the reference wrong I think. Need to start proof reading.

Jim said...

Amb,
Wow! Your words were just dripping with the rain that soaks into one's life and washes clean the eddys of backwater thinking, replacing it with a fresh rippling of thought!

My girl's a true poet of words to parallel any Thoreau among us!

Love you, Babe!
Jim-Dad

Laura @ House Of Joyful Noise said...

I have a thing for seasons too. And like you, I prefer the slow, more predictable, and God willing...happy changes. (In weather and life!) Reading your post, all I could envision was The Hundred Acre Woods, on a 'blustery day'. Hoping the winds settle for you all soon.

He & Me + 3 said...

Aww girl...read your post below. This season of my life has been a bit crazy and out of sorts too. Trying to settle in myself. I haven't even really been blogging it has been so nuts. I like the slow change too.
Hope the rest of your week is blessed.
mimi

Carpool Queen said...

I've been praying for you. If you need to talk, I've been where you are.

Sandy said...

I love the way you worded all of this (& I think you get your "ability" from your dad...) Sometimes it's like being caught in the middle of winter with only shorts & swim suits available, wondering how you can find any warmth. I'm praying that God will provide the peace that only comes from Him, give you patience, & clothe you with His righteousness.